Monday, June 27, 2011

Things Are Changing, But Nothing Changes

Title of this post was taken from the song Odyssey of the Mind by Enigma.

Boys and their toys :). We had a good weekend full of projects mixed with sweat, dirt, laughter and tears. My dad came over on Saturday with his Kabota tractor and we pulled up some trees and bushes. I'm pretty certain that what we did to the lawn was NOT part of Mike's five year plan, but it's what I needed to do. It made me sad, because I know it's not what he would have wanted. All the same it was really cool, and I had more fun than I thought I would. 

 Here is the awful lilac bush that we dug up. I absolutely hated this tree. I am so glad it is gone!










Mason had so much fun working with my dad.

 Sebastian and my dad working side by side. Mike would have been proud of how hard he worked.
Sweet!












Mike's brother Scott also came over, and we went through stuff in the garage. He took quite a bit of stuff with him, and helped me organize things. I found things that just made me miss Mike so much. Scott let me cry and kept me from torturing myself by putting aside some of those more personal things. We found more toys than I knew we even had! A lot of it was from when they were young, so I was glad that he was able to take some of that. 
     It hit me again today that my kids will never have those father son/daughter moments that most other kids will have. While other kids talk about all the cool things they get to do with their dad, my kids won't have that. However, they do have amazing aunts, uncles, and grandparents to do things with, and those moments will be defining for them.

7 comments:

Kate said...

Hey Mel, Thanks fo rsaying the kids had awesome aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents! I hope I can be there for all of you...I am still having trouble accepting Mike's death..I would LOVE to see you guys more often! I HOPE I am off on the 4th of July..Love you guys SO much! Remember, if any of you ever need anything, please let me know! Love you all!!!!

Beverly said...

Sounds like you had a very productive weekend ! That's so good. I really enjoy reading your blog. Can't wait to show the kids the video of your alls trip....they will love it ! I love the picture of your Dad & Sebastion on the tractor ! Wishing you a great week ! :)

Mel said...

Kate - I know it's been hard on you guys as well. I'd like for you to look through some of his stuff and see if there is anything you might want. Maybe some of his art? Let me know when you are free this week and maybe you can come over for dinner and we can talk. Let me know.

Beverly - It was a very productive weekend, so much stuff to do! This blog has really allowed me to not only document the struggles, but to post on the good things going on. Thanks for reading! Have a great week!

Mandaly B. said...

It really touches my heart deeply to the point of tears when I hear you talk about the occasional good and happy moments despite the fact that I know that it has been hard for you to allow yourself to feel those feelings yet. I'm super proud of you! Its amazing how your words help to heal a little bit more each time I read them. How in the world did I end up with such an awesome and inspiring sister? So thankful for all of the ways you bless my life sis, here for you always.... duh we have like been BFF's since before we came to earth! Lol... I love you....

Katrina said...

Isn't it funny how a little hard work and a little dirt can make you feel good for a bit. I'm glad to hear you have lots of family support and love. I hope you have a good week. Take care.

mom said...

your pics and comments brought warmth and encouragement to my heart. Now we need to set a date to start on the upstairs so we can have some more family time together along with taking super pics that say so much. Love you so much and think about you and my dear grandkids every day. love mom

WdwrFthr said...

They can come work with me anytime, I have plenty to keep them busy.