Saturday, June 11, 2011

We Don't Need No Education

Title of this post was taken from the song Another Brick In The Wall Part II by Pink Floyd.

SCHOOL IS OUT!!! Yesterday was the last day of school for my kids and students. I can't believe how fast it went by. I have learned so many things this year, things I didn't even know I didn't know. I am incredibly grateful for the wonderful people I work with.I truly work with an incredible group of educators. Thank you to everyone for supporting me as the new kid on the block, and during the last few months when I haven't been myself. At the end of the day, as I stood alone in my packed up clutter free classroom, tears ran down my face. I will miss this routine.

Sebastian wearing my graduation cap in 2005.
Sebastian graduated from elementary school. How is that possible?!  He will be moving on to the middle school and new experiences in the fall. I'm sad that he won't have his dad here to give him the advice that only a dad can give.  He is such a kind young man, and I hate to think he will lose that innocence. It's hard to believe that just nine years ago I was putting him on the bus at the age of three so that he could attend early childhood. That shy child with a speech delay has turned into an outgoing young man who has no trouble telling me I'm not as funny as I think I am. I love him so much more than he will ever know.

Tyler will be in fourth grade, and little Mason will be in Kindergarten. I love having my kids at the same school I teach in. They get to come to work with me, go home with me and I'm there if they need me during the day. 

I'm not sure I'm ready for how different next school year will be. I want Mike here to tell me that I'm doing things right. I need him to tell me that I'm not royally screwing up our children. I need him to validate my thoughts and feelings. I need his reassurances and warm hugs, and when I start to think about how much I need that I get angry all over again. So, here is to Sebastian, my incredibly smart, kind, loving, and considerate young man. I love you to infinity and beyond!


Beverly said...

Wonderful blog post , Melanie ! That picture of Sebastion in your grad. cap made me cry! It was so hard watching those little guys graduate elementary school yesterday but at the same time it was such a proud moment ! X told me his eyes watered up but that he didn't let it out. Callagahn has such a family like atmosphere , that I think they will miss that closeness. BTW/ I think you are an awesome Mom & are going to do just fine with the kids. Don't second guess yourself ! I hope you have a great summer & enjoy your trip to Florida ! And Sebastion & X are going to be in my prayers as they embark on middle school......a huge change for them. We love you !

Linda said...

I can remember when sebastian first came into primary and your mom thought he would never sit still. I echo Beverly's statements concerning your motherly worries.all of us pray that we don't screw up our kids. yours are so well rounded and grounded to family that they will always come out on top. a phrase from many years ago comes to mind, "just keep on keeping on".

Melanie said...

Beverly - It's so hard to believe they will be 6th graders! I'm so glad X and Sebastian are such good friends. It helps me worry a little less! Love you!

Linda - Thanks, I just feel like I'm never doing enough, especially now.

Unknown said...

Just the other day I was thinking my kids were growing up way too fast. I'm certain that I will blink and find them entering middle school and high school.

As far as your parenting, I don't know you, but I will share with you my philosophy on parenting: Love them, teach them everything you feel makes a good/productive human being, prepare them for life without you and then support them and let them make their own way. I worry all the time I'm going to screw up my kids...but they were given to me for a I just keep trying to do my best.

Thanks for visiting my blog and commenting.

Jill said...

I too feel like I am never doing enough for my children. My adult son has put those fears to rest by making my head swell and telling me that I did a good job. I heard a stake president give a talk in which he said that if we are raising our kids as best we can while staying close to the Lord and counseling him in our actions, then we will never mess up in a major way. (I didn't say that as eloquently as he did, but I hope you get the idea.