Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Oh Simple Thing Where Have You Gone

Title of this post was taken from the song Somewhere Only We Know by Keane.

Yesterday, I realized my birthday is this week. On July 14th I will be 32, or half way to 64 either way you want to look at it. How is it possible that I'm widowed? Did someone not get the notice that Mike and I were supposed to live happily ever after! I'm not strong enough to deal with this. He should be here with me! No one understands how hard it is to hear my precious 5 year old scream that he wants to die, because he wants to see his dad in heaven! Deep breath. Just breathe, just breathe. Kinda going off course... 
                                                Back on track...
                                                              As I got to thinking about my birthday, I realized that I am fairly certain about what Mike would have planned. He would have taken me to dinner and then we would have gone to see the new Winnie the Pooh movie. He knew how much I heart Winnie the Pooh. With him not here what are my options? I'm not going to bake myself a cake, and the kids aren't going to buy me one unless I take them to do it. I'd even have to give them money to buy me gifts, I'm not digging any of this. So last night I decided that we would pack our bags and go out of town. Some place where no one knows I'm a widow. I'll just be a mom traveling with three kids. Some place where no one knows it's my birthday, and no one will have this need to wish me a good one, because who are we kidding it's nothing to celebrate right now. Some place where I can relax with the kids and if we feel like it we may do something, then again we might not. Some place not in Virginia. 
     I did some research and we are heading to Gatlinburg, TN. Why there you might ask, I don't know, it just sounds like fun. The kids are super excited and have even cleaned house. Now the reality of this trip is setting in. My brother was going to go with us, which would have been totally awesome, but Tyler was pretty adamant that it just be the four of us. She's really struggling, so we decided to make this trip alone. I've never taken them so far away for so long all by myself. Am I really going to do this? Oh my, I'm totally out numbered on this trip. They have me three to one. Ummm...what was I thinking. Well, no more time to talk about it, we are leaving in an hour. We will be back on Sunday at some point. I am taking my laptop so I may update while we are there, but then again I may not. Hope everyone has a great week!                         

4 comments:

Kate said...

Melanie, you and the kids go and have a good time..you and the kids deserve it!! Thanks for everything last night!! Loves you all!!

Beverly said...

Your going to do FINE on your own with the kids this week. My heart hurts for Mason. TN would be my choice of a place to take off to ....IF I was brave enough to travel ( I'm NOT ) Wishing you safe travels , Melanie !

Katrina said...

Safe travels to you. Here is me NOT wishing you a Happy Birthday. I hope you enjoy the time with your kiddos. Have a nice trip!

Katrina said...

thank you for the prayers! they are very much appreciated!