Wednesday, September 21, 2011

It's Coming Down To Nothing More Than Apathy

     The title of this post was taken from the song Over My Head by The Fray.

     At 5:05 am Friday morning Fall will officially be here. I love fall. My house has been a little chilly in the mornings, anything below 70 is chilly to me. So the last few days when my alarm goes off at 4:30 or 5:00 it has been 68 degrees in my house. That's just cool enough for me to hit the snooze button a few times, and curl up under my favorite red blanket. I find myself making excuses not to get up. I snuggle in deeper, curling my toes around the edge of the blanket so that every part of me is covered. It's as if I think this is going to ward off the inevitable. I know that I'll have to get up. I know that I'll have things to do. I know that the kids will need up in a few. I won't have much time left, but my blankets will feel oh so good. It's a little sad that I'm already anticipating this for in the morning. While I'm still not sleeping very well, I love to snuggle up in my blanket on a cold morning. 
    On another note I feel like my plate is so full I just can't keep up with everything. Something is going to have to give, and I hope that when it does I'll know I've made the right decisions for my family. I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. I used to have a path, a plan, I knew where I was going and what I wanted. Now I feel like I have no answers. Maybe I'll find my answers tomorrow. Until then I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet, while snuggled under my red blanket, and praying for sleep to come.


lyndsey said...

I know what you mean about cold mornings. Our house 66 the other day so I made turkey pot pie and ginger snap cookies -deciding it wasn't too early to start enjoying the cooler weather.

Hopefully you'll at least get a good rest on the weekend -and hopefully it'll be cool enough to stay wrapped up until ten.

Miss. Him said...

My husband was so warm all the time. I loved to snuggle up next to him and "steal his warmth" as we called it. I am so happy I live in South Florida where we have very few cold nights. I can't think of anything worse to remind me how alone I am now.

Unknown said...

I snuggle in my blankets all year round. I love how warm and comfy my bed is in the mornings. I think that's just my excuse to not get up when the alarm goes off.

I hope you get some good, peaceful rest soon and that you are able to find the direction and path you're seeking. Take care!

Allison said...

It's ok to get help from family and friends so that nothing with your family has to "go." That's what extended family and friends are for! (including me!) I'd love to help with your kids - who I happen to ADORE!!!

Melanie said...

Lyndsey - That sounds awesome. That's why I love the cooler weather!

Miss.Him - I stay cold in the winter, and Mike was always warm. I just miss being held. I hate that we both have this in common.

Katrina - I use it as an excuse as well :)

Allison - Thanks so much.

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