The title of this post was taken from the song Torch by Alanis Morisettee.
I saw someone I graduated with the other day. I hadn't seen them since graduation. Their first question was "What have you been up to since 1997?" Wow, what have I been up to since then. Not much...I was married for 14 years, had three children, earned two Masters degrees, and now I'm a widow. That's my life in a nutshell.
We took Michael out to dinner for his birthday today. It was good to spend time with the family. In the end my mom took home Mason and Tyler for a sleepover, and Sebastian is staying with Mandaly. I am sitting at home alone. Sometimes when my days are busy I think I want peace and quiet, but the truth is I don't handle it very well. My house is quiet except for the heat when it comes on, and the music I am playing. I tried to sleep upstairs, but there are several problems with that. One, I've turned my bed into a big clothes rack. I don't sleep upstairs so a good portion of my clothes get laid out on the bed. The next problem is that I don't think I can sleep up there alone. I use the kids as an excuse to sleep on the couch, but I think really I'm trying not to deal with a big empty bed. I don't want to feel the weight of having no children in the house along with sleeping in a bed that fits two people better than one. So here I sit listening to my music. I have nothing poetic or interesting to write tonight. Just the ramblings of a woman who is way too tired. This sums it all up so here are the lyrics from the song Torch by Alanis Morisettee.
I miss your smell and your style and your pure abiding way