Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Now I'll Be Bold As Well As Strong And Use My Head Alongside My Heart

      The title of this post was taken from the song I Will Wait by Mumford and Sons.

     I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted. Quick updates for now, too much has happened for me to go into much detail. John and I were married on October 11, 2012. I was pretty much a crazy ball of nerves. My biggest concern about the whole thing was the possibility of someday becoming a widow again. I didn't second guess my decision or what I was doing, but the thought of us getting older and...well one of us will have to die first and what if it's not me. What if I'm left a widow again? Anyway, those were the thoughts floating through my head the week before the wedding. It was a very simple wedding and we were surrounded by family who love us. John's brother and sister-in-law flew in from Arizona to attend and then we went to the beach for the weekend.  Here are a few pictures.


All the family


We are adjusting to life and the roles that each of us play. We have fun and John loves the kids fiercely. I have had some negative comments made about the fact I remarried not even two years after Mike passed. I don't know why I still feel the need to defend my actions or happiness, but I do. I wrote something on Mike's FB wall before the wedding that captures how I feel on the subject ..."People often mistake my happiness for a lack of grief. Grief and Happiness are not mutually exclusive. My love for you will be forever...and my need to love life will be as well. You are with me always. Love you" 

More posts soon. Its just taking sometime to get into routines around here, but hopefully we will slow down and enjoy the holidays.