It's Only Half Past The Point Of Oblivion

 The title of this post was taken from the song Glitter In The Air by Pink.

     I haven't been able to see well lately. I knew that I needed to replace my contacts, but the hustle and bustle of the holidays and travel left me little time to think of much else. Anytime I did think about replacing my contacts I was never home to fix the problem. Yesterday as I was at work I found myself squinting to see things that should have been clear. This morning as I kept rubbing my eyes and trying to clear my vision I finally gave up and went to the bathroom to grab new contacts. I put them in and as I looked around it was almost painful. Everything was so clear and bright. It took me a good while to get used to them, but once I did I had to admonish myself for taking so long to fix this simple problem. What really struck me was that I didn't even know how bad it was. I knew my vision was off, but I didn't realize just how much I wasn't able to see. I had to wonder what beautiful sights had I missed because I couldn't see clearly, or rather because I had ignored a problem that I knew existed because it was easier than dealing with it.

     How often do we live our lives like this? How often do we walk about in a haze not really sure of where were going or with what purpose. Maybe we have a general idea or a goal of some sort, but the path ahead seems so unclear that we never really make any progress. I often feel like this in my life. I feel like I have tons of small things that keep me busy, but when was the last time I changed out my day to day understanding for that of an eternal perspective. 
      I often measure my worth or value using the world's view of what worth and value is. I dare say it's hard not to. We live in a day and age where we are bombarded with outside influences telling us how we should live and what we should place importance on. How often do I get sucked into that rabbit hole and then I'm left feeling like I do today. How often do I sacrifice what I want the most for what I want right now. Often times what I want the most does not give me the immediate gratification that I desire, it requires patience and perseverance. How easily it is to dismiss the things that matter most for things the world tells us matters the most.