Monday, February 11, 2013

Disarm You With A Smile

The title of this post was taken from the song Disarm by Smashing Pumpkins.

I have a really good friend Darrell, who has a blog here. As part of my morning routine I sit and read his posts. He is an incredible writer and my favorite post by him can be found right here. Okay, that's my favorite until I see what he posts tomorrow. Go check out his blog. 

My topic for today is to describe three legitimate fears I have 
and explain how they became fears.

     Are any fears legitimate? I would dare say most are not, but there are times when life throws us a curve ball and we take those experiences and find something to fear in them. So here are my fears legitimate or not.

1) I fear never being good enough. I have always thought that even when I try my best there is room for improvement. In my opinion nothing I do is ever good enough. My fear is that the people I love will realize this and leave. Stupid maybe...okay probably. It doesn't stop it from being a fear.

2) I have a fear of losing the people I love. 
It terrifies to think that one day I may be a widow again. 

3) I have an insane fear of mayonnaise. I can't even tell you why. I remember as a child having a babysitter that fixed me a sandwich with mayonnaise on it and after I told them I didn't like it they refused to fix me anything else. Mayonnaise smells funny, it looks funny, it sounds funny when you stir it, and it tastes awful. I don't even like keeping it in the house and goodness knows I don't cook with it. I can't stand it. I once smacked someone for wiping mayonnaise on my arm. 
Not my proudest moment.

2 comments:

fearandloafingva.com said...

I worry a lot more about losing the people I love than I do about my own death. I can relate, too, to the fear of never being good enough. I'm ambivalent about mayonnaise, though. I don't mind it but I'm not crazy about it, either.

My most irrational fear is these things: http://goo.gl/jpcff If I see one I get a case of the heeby jeebies that lasts several hours. I have no problem with snakes, spiders, bears, vampires, Irishmen, circus clowns, dragons, sharks, Methodists, magicians, beauticians, goats, etc.... but show me one of those things and I go all to pieces.

Thanks for the link!

Melanie Dawson Mullineaux said...

You are too funny :)