The title of this post was taken from the song Nothing Else Matters by Metallica.
Yea, I know I'm trying to get through that whole 30 day list I posted about awhile ago, but I'm not doing a very good job. I've been extremely tired lately. The next question on the list was this:
If you had three wishes what would you wish for?
I could not control the eye-rolling when I read this. Really? How the heck am I supposed to answer that? Three wishes...am I twelve? No, I refuse to wish for something that I have no control over making happen, and honestly I can't even go there. Think about it. What would you think I might wish for first? Are you thinking I would wish to have Mike back, and yes that seems like a logical wish. However, by doing that wouldn't I be putting the value of my past over the value of my future thus saying I wouldn't want my life with John if I could have my life with Mike? I can't do that. No amount of wishing will bring Mike back. Why would I torture myself with that? Do I miss him on a daily basis, sure I do. Do I hate that my kids don't have their dad around, sure I do. My life as a whole has value and I won't try to make one time in my life more valuable than any other. I'm not sure I make sense or that anyone else would agree. I can't bring him back and wishing or focusing on the what if's will not bring him back. I can't go there.
Moving on I guess I could wish for money, but would I want to be handed something I hadn't worked for? Isn't that how I learned the value of a dollar, by working for it. I guess I could wish for world peace, a cure for cancer, or a billon other broad topic things. A better idea would be to set a goal to make things happen in my life rather than sitting around and wishing for things to happen. Isn't that the problem with society today? People have this sense of entitlement as if things should be handed to them because they wish for them to be. No thank you. Life is not a Disney movie and I don't believe in happily ever after.