Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Be A Simple Kind Of Man And Be Something You'll Love And Understand

     The title of this post was taken from the song Simple Man by Shinedown.

     Jaxon Alexander Mullineaux was born on Oct. 14 at 12:47 pm. He weighed 8lbs 8oz and was 21 inches long. I don't care to go into all the details. I ended up having a scheduled c-section and it was a very different experience from having three natural deliveries. Everyone is healthy and well.  


Look at that precious face! Nine months to grow this little fella and nine months to do a lot of worrying. Nine months of being unsure of how I would handle being a new mom again. Nine months of worry about how the other kids would do once the baby was here.  Nine months of worry over the fact I'm 34 and having a baby, am I too old for this? Nine months of worry about how we would financially afford a baby, especially since I don't have paid maternity leave. Nine months of random weird looks and questions from people wondering why I would want another child. Nine months of feeling like I had to defend my decision to have another child. Nine months of constant worry. All of that disappeared when I held my son for the first time. I know I'll be a good mom, not perfect, but good. We made the choice to have a child and he will grow up in a home where he is loved. I am in love.