Friday, May 30, 2014

Stands Out In A Line

The title of this post was taken from the song American Girls by Counting Crows.

Photo Bomb Friday

Sebastian's last JV soccer game. He had so much fun, but I think he was glad to see the season end. He worked really hard!

During practice Sebastian went to hit the ball with his head and it hit him in the face instead. His glasses left an imprint. I had to chuckle just a little :)

Last Saturday I took Tyler to see R5 with Ross Lynch in concert. We drove to Richmond and this is us waiting in line to get in. We already had our tickets but the line was three blocks long. I should have anticipated that.


I spent most of my time watching Tyler. She had so much fun!

On Monday my Dad and Uncle Dale came over to help us dig up some trees and shrubs that I didn't want in the yard. The previous owners of this house would not be happy :) I'm just not very good with gardening and I don't have the time to keep up with it all so I'd rather not have overgrown bushes and plants in my yard. Maybe someday.

Mason on Dad's tractor.

The kids worked so hard. 

This is my Uncle Dale. Just like my grandpa he wears long sleeve shirts to work in the 90 degree weather. He walks with a cane because he hurt his ankle years ago in a motorcycle accident. Just like my Dad he is one of the hardest working men I know. 

I want to start posting pictures of our family calendar at the end of each month. I thought it might be fun for the kids to look back and see what our days were like. Things will change a bit for us on Monday. John got a job. He will be working for Westvaco at the Low Moor Plant. It's through Manpower like last time but we are hoping he will get hired on with the company at some point. Time to hunt for a babysitter for Jaxon.

Saturday, May 24, 2014

So Innocent, Pure and Sweet

      The title of this post was taken from the song American Honey by Lady Antebellum.

     I thought I would give a quick update on how Mason is doing with his anxiety and behavior at school. If you don't know what I'm talking about you can read about it here. Mason continues to see Dr. Rob every other week and he loves it. He will often ask "Is this a Dr. Rob week?" or "When do I get to see Dr. Rob?" He likes going and he likes talking to him. Mason is doing great! Just a few months ago my heart would pound as I asked him to give me his behavior sheet from school. I wasn't sure what it was going to say and it made me anxious. Now there are days that I forget to ask for it because he just isn't having problems in school. Now, don't get me wrong there are still some classes that might have a mark for talking to much or something small like that, but it doesn't cause Mason to come unglued like it used to. It doesn't carry over to the rest of his day and he accepts the redirection very well. Months ago a redirection to stop talking could have caused him to shut down and refuse to do anything for hours at a time. We are in such a good place with him right now.  
     I'm so proud of him and the progress he has made. I'm so glad that I listened to my instincts and didn't put him on medication when the psychiatrist suggested it. I'm glad that I did what I knew was best for my son and our situation. Mason is still a bit hyperactive and his therapist has said he would classify him as having ADHD, but right now we are managing that by limiting his sugar intake, and trying to eat healthier as a family. We also let him run and play as much as possible to help keep his energy levels in check and we are using some behavior modification techniques. This is working for us. 
   The other day I asked Mason why he thought he was doing so much better in school now as compared to the beginning of the year.

"I don't know mom. I just know I feel better and I'm not as angry. I'm getting nicer."

"You know you were always nice."

"I know... I don't know mom. I just feel better."

Love this boy and his happy face. 

Friday, May 23, 2014

I'm Working On The High Hope

The title of this post was taken from the song High Hope by Glen Hansard.    

Photo Bomb Friday

Sebastian made the Alleghany High School Concert Choir!! 
I am beyond proud of him and all of his accomplishments this year. 

So this may seem like a weird picture to post but I walked into my classroom the other day and a dear friend and coworker had left this on my desk. I love green olives. I love them so much that as a child I would get a jar of green olives in my Easter basket instead of a chocolate bunny. This friend knew it had been a rough week for me and she took time out of her day to remember something so small that meant so much to me.

Jaxon riding our horse dog Jasper :)

Tyler found this nest of baby birds in the tree in our yard. She was so excited and couldn't wait to show me. So sweet!

This past week a coworker and I drove down to Wise County, VA for a conference/training. We were there for two days and one day after lunch we took a walk in a nearby park. It was beautiful!!!

We sat under the this tree and talked for a bit. So peaceful.

John sent me this snapchat of Jaxon. He knew I was missing my kiddos while I was gone!

After being away for two nights this is what I feel asleep to last night. Just me, my bed, and my Kindle. I always fall asleep while reading and John puts my Kindle away for me when he comes to bed. One more day of work before the weekend!

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Be Truth Seekers

    The title of this post was taken from the song Hall of Fame by The Script.

 Conversation with Tyler last week:

Me: Hey guess what! I passed my exam! Yay me!

Tyler: That's great mom...

Her voice trails off

Me: What?

Tyler: I don't think I want to go to college right after high school. I want to take some time off.

With my eyes bugging out of my head: I don't think so young lady.

Tyler: But Mom! I just want to take a little time off.

Me: Not going to happen sweetie.

Tyler: Why not?

Me: Do you remember all of the studying and all of the classes I took when you were young? Do you remember me picking you up from Mamaws house after you were already asleep in bed because I had late night classes? Do you see what I'm doing now? Do you see how hard it is for me to juggle family, home, work, and school? Don't you think it would have been a lot easier if I had done all of that BEFORE I got married and had a family.

Tyler: So, you regret getting married so young?

Me: No, not at all. I'm just saying that it was a lot harder to go to school while being a wife and mother. You can never go wrong with education and I will not allow you to be anything less than your best.

Tyler rolling her eyes: Alright, alright. I get it.

There is a delicate balance between giving your child credit for doing their best even when, if compared to the standard, their best doesn't make the mark and simply not putting forth the effort. I grew up with my dad always telling me that a job worth doing is worth doing right. I try so hard to make sure the kids understand this. I can only hope that they see why I'm continuing my education and understand that there are always opportunities to learn new things and to push yourself. I never want them to settle for less than who they are.
      I picked this particular song for the title of this post because we have listened to it over and over and over again in the car this week. Sebastian tried out for the high school chorus on Friday. Originally he was going to sing this song. We listened to it everyday so that he could practice. He ended up singing a different song, but in the mean time I fell in love with this one. I picked apart my favorite lines from this song and put them together. 

You can throw your hands up
You can beat the clock 
You can move a mountain
You can break rocks
You can be a master
Don't wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you gon' find yourself
Standing in the hall of fame 

You can go the distance
You can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile
You can be the hero
You can get the gold
Breaking all the records they thought never could be broke
Yeah, do it for your people
Do it for your pride
How are you ever gonna know if you never even try?
Do it for your country
Do it for your name
'Cause there's gonna be a day...
When you're standing in the hall of fame 

Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers
Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions
Be truth seekers
Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers
Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions

I must admit that hearing my 14 year old sing this chokes me up. Especially the line that says "Be truth seekers." I want them to always be the seekers of truth in everything they do whether it be at home with their family, at school, with their friends or at church. I don't want them blindly following anything. I want them to constantly seek the truth and education will go a long way in helping them accomplish this. I want them to stand in their own hall of fame. 

Friday, May 16, 2014

But There's No Escaping Your Love

     The title of this post was taken from the song Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows.

     I started this blog as a way to handle my grief. As I have begun to construct a different life for myself I've struggled with writing about happy things on here. I almost feel like if I don't post about Mike that I'm somehow betraying him or not recognizing how much I loved him. I've also come to realize that this is a great way for me to journal about how life was, how life is, and how I hope life will be in 10 or 20 years. So, I plan on doing more writing. Just a fair warning it won't all be about Mike or my grief. It's just going to be about my life as it is no matter what it looks like at the moment.
     Where did this come from? There are websites that will take your blog and print it into book format. I want to do that with my blog. Of course it's just for me. I just want a tangible copy of what I write. I was thinking that at the end of each year I would have one printed for that year and then it can be my ongoing journal for my family. 
      So, let's start with what I'm going to call Photo Bomb Friday and it's something I want to do every week. Here are pictures I've taken from this last week. 

Beautiful smile! Love that boy!

Sebastian's end of the year choir concert. I am so proud of him and all of his accomplishments. He even auditioned for, and made, District Chorus this year.

Hello Me!

Mikayla holding Jaxon. I love her so much!!

Mom, Dad, Jaxon, and Gracie. I don't think Jaxon knows what to do with such a small dog! And isn't my mom beautiful!

Yikes! Sebastian had an away JV soccer game and we picked him up when it was over, but the bus was locked and we couldn't get his backpack. How convenient that the windows were down and his backpack was on the seat. John gave him a boost :) This is legal right? John looks all serious but I thought we were all going to die from laughing so much. Making memories :)

The kiddos in the car waiting for Tyler's bus to come. They are counting down the days until the end of the school year!

On Wednesday the youth of our church had an etiquette night at Hillcrest Bed and Breakfast. Members of our church own this beautiful place and are working on turning it into a bed and breakfast. Anyway, they served a four course meal with full place settings and taught them some things about good etiquette. It was really neat and the kids had a lot of fun! 

This is a wrap up of the last week. Looking to the future I want see my grandkids reading these posts and laughing at the silly things their parents did. Oh, the memories we are making.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

So Wake Me Up

The title of this post was taken from the song Wake Me Up by Avicii.

     Every morning I have a small panic attack as I wake Sebastian up for school. I turn on his bedroom light and tell him it's time to get up, and then I hold my breath. I wait for a small movement, the rise and fall of his chest, or the movement of an arm just so that I know he is alive. I know this is completely irrational. What are the chances of him having a heart attack and passing away in his sleep like his dad? Probably not very high, but I panic every morning anyway. I don't do this with the other kids and I'm not really sure why. Maybe it's because Sebastian looks so much like his dad and has so many of his mannerisms. Maybe it's because he sleeps on his side the same way his dad did. Maybe it brings back the images of finding Mike in bed like that. Maybe I just find things to obsess over. I'm not really sure. I just know I feel a lot better once he is up and moving. Here's to a happy Wednesday. It's a remarkable day already because all of my kids are awake, happy, and healthy.