Tuesday, December 9, 2014

It's All That Matters For Now

The title of this post was taken from the song People by Awolnation.

     A few days ago we had one of those days in our house. The kind where everyone had six places to be, everyone needed something, and I was trying to get dinner ready. For about the fourteenth time Jaxon pulled off the shelf my Tori Amos box-set and was dragging it around the house. I took it from him and said:

"Jaxon (in my whiniest voice possible), please stop messing with that. Da...."

and then I stopped.

John noticed the pause in my sentence.

"What?"

"Well...I was going to tell him to leave it alone because Dad had given it to me, but it's not his Dad it would just be Mike to him."

"...Okay."

"It's just that I'm so used to just referring to Mike as Dad when talking to the kids, and I've never specifically said anything about him to Jaxon so it was weird to think about calling him Mike. He'll never know who Mike is and it just seems weird.

"Hun, Jaxon will know who Mike is because he is a part of our family. He's not a secret. We will tell him about Mike."

"It was just a weird moment."

"I know."

On a day to day basis I don't look at the kids and divide them as Dawson and Mullineaux. They are all my kids. John doesn't do this either, but sometimes I forget that Jaxon and Blake will have different family/life experiences than Sebastian, Tyler and Mason. It goes both ways. Jaxon and Blake will grow up hearing their siblings call their Dad by his first name, and I'm sure I'll wonder then if that is weird for them. What an odd family we are.

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