Friday, July 29, 2016

I Hope My Children Come And Visit Once Or Twice A Month

    The title of this post was taken from the song 7 Years by Lukas Graham.

      I have a fear that my kids will grow up, move away, and I won't see them more than once or twice a year. I have two brothers and a sister and none of us have ever lived more than an hour away, from our hometown, for longer than six months. Don't get me wrong I want my kids to experience new things and go where they can get jobs they love, because there aren't a lot of opportunities around here. I just don't know how I would handle it. 
     Sebastian, Tyler and Mason saved me from myself after Mike passed away. For almost the first year after he died I hated going anywhere in my car without at least one of them with me. There were so many times that I thought how easy it would be to run my car off the road and into a tree. I often felt so overwhelmed with grief and sometimes I just wanted it to end. I knew I would never ever hurt one of my kids and so I tried really hard never to go anywhere without them. They were my reasons to keep going, to put one foot in front of the other. I just can't imagine them ever being very from from me.   
     One of my favorite songs right now is 7 Years by Lukas Graham and I love to sing a long. Every single time I hear/sing this song I tear up at the line "I hope my children come and visit once or twice a month." There have been many times that I've had to stop singing because it made me so emotional. My kids are my life. So much of what I do is for them and I can't imagine them not being around. 
     Right now Tyler is away at camp, Sebastian is hanging out in his room, Mason is playing his DS, and Jaxon and Blake are taking a nap. My house is really quiet at the moment. I keep picking up my textbook to try and read but I can't concentrate without the noise. I finally turned on some cartoons and played some music on my phone. I was finally able to study a little. What in the world will I do when all five kids are out of the house and living on their own...I guess by then I'll have grandchildren so maybe it won't be that bad.

Monday, July 25, 2016

Seasons Are Changing And Waves Are Crashing

The title of this post was taken from the song Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. 

      Vacation. It was hot, we stayed tired, we fought, but we had so much fun. This year we decided to go to Atlanta, GA. We wanted to take the kids to Six Flags, Six Flags White Water and the Atlanta Zoo. Mom, Dad and my nephew Owen went with us. Here are some pictures. At the end of this year I want to have my blog printed, just for myself, and I need to do a better job of writing more often. Funny little things pop up in our day to day and I hate that I haven't recorded any of it. For example, the other day I told Jaxon to hurry up and eat his sandwich and he answered "Be patient mom, just be patient." We laughed so hard. 
     Sebastian and Tyler spent a week at EFY and Mason went to 4-H camp. Tyler is at girls camp this week. I go back to work next week. I'm a bit anxious about this school year, but only because I have so many things I want to do. I worry that I won't get it all done. I'm also studying for my BCBA exam that I'll be taking in November. I was going to take it in August, but I just don't feel ready so I'm studying several hours a day to make sure I'm prepared for November. There's a lot going on and daddy always taught me that a job worth doing was worth doing right. Here's to hoping it all works out.

Jaxon doing the sign for I Love You.

Mason and Owen at Olympic Park.

Dad sitting on a spinning chair at the park.

Six Flags

Jaxon riding a ride. He loved it.

Owen, Mason and Sylvester

Tyler feeding the birds.

Jaxon was exhausted!

Tyler, Blake, and Papaw!

Checking out the animals.