Tuesday, July 11, 2017

It's Only Been A Moment It's Only Been A Lifetime, But Tonight You're A Stranger Or Some Silhouette

The title of this post was taken from the song Silhouette by Aquilo.

     I renewed my teaching license five years ago in 2012. I remember then wondering what my life would look like in five years when I had to renew it again. I never would have guessed that I would be remarried and have two more adorable kids. I wouldn't have guessed that I would go back to school and be a BCBA. I don't know where I pictured myself, but it isn't where I am right now. I love my life even if it's not what I could have pictured. I wonder what my life will look like in five years when I have to renew it again. It will be 2022 then and I can't even begin to imagine.
     The 2016-2017 school year has ended and we are quickly approaching a new school year. Sebastian will be a senior, what?!, I can't even believe it. Tyler will be a sophomore, Mason will be in 6th grade, Jaxon will be in the IPop class, and Blake will start at the Y. So much change and so much will happen this year. I am making a change as well. I accepted the job as behavior analyst for our district. This is super super scary for me. My classroom is my safe space. I can go in my room at the start of the day, close the door, and most of the time if I don't want to I don't have to come out until the end of the day. I know my students. They are predictable in an unpredictable manner. I've spent years building relationships with them and now I'm stepping away and allowing someone else to come in and take over. I worry how much I'll be able to let go. My assistants know me, they know what I want before I even open my mouth. We are like a well oiled machine. This will be a change, not a bad change but a change nonetheless. This new job will force me to interact more with adults and adults can be scary :). 

My name next to my classroom. The classroom I've called home for 5 years.

 I cried as I walked out of my classroom on the last day. I still get to work with those students just not in the same capacity. Change is so hard for me though. On another note I'll have an office next year. What?! I'm not an office kind of person. I'm a play on the floor with my students kind of person. What's that quote "There's nothing permanent except change." or something like that. Here's to the last few weeks of summer break. I'm going to do my best to post more this year. I want to document Sebastian's senior year and all the funny things that happen in our day to day lives. I could write a book with just the funny things Jaxon says. 

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